Landslide

Hilary Clinton beats Barrack Obama in the New Hampshire primaries - landslide on the way? Ladies in front of me talking at the top of their voices, giving me a migraine. I was looking forward to the Toddycats meeting later but my cold hasn't gone away since Xmas eve and well, we have this policy of staying away if we are ill. Rightly so since I don't want to spread my germs.

It's rainy - doesn't help one who is already in a melancholic mood. Today, the inevitable happened. I went in to see my attorney and signed the writ. It stirred up dormant feelings that I had locked away since June 2002. It has opened up uncertainty, of which is homelessness. I have to start hunting for a new place and with my finances tied up in my current home, oh boy, I am not in a happy place. Given the crazy prices of property now, I am stuck. Everyone says I have to get rid of my furballs. How can I? It's cruel and I do not want to add on to the population of unwanted animals in Singapore.

I am feeling numb now, yet a myriad of emotions are coursing through me. Adds to the feeling of rejection I have been feeling since I was informed via email that MINDEF is turning down my job application. Lest I break down in public, I will not elaborate further. The lyrics of the old Stevie Nicks/Fleetwood Mac song says it all.

LANDSLIDE

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too
Well...

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older, too
Well I'm getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Year and if you climb a mountain and ya turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down